Ins, outs, and others....

So today is a really hectic day at work...but I choose today to start making some decisions...Today I'm going to start letting certain, choice, people know that I'm going to have this major life changing event...a bypass. My secret is coming out! Today isn't a day for fear;people like me, they'll be happy for this decision. Overwhelming support is the way it went for me today! They like me, they really like me....and want me to be healthy! (Plus, when the time comes, it'll give us all a reason to shop!!)

As I sat at lunch drinking my super gigantic Diet Dr Pepper I got a little misty....not because the carbonation was choking me, but because I realized just how much I will miss the Dr! Post bypass is a life without pop! Or at least not in the big giant version I so desperately love!

For the moment, I'm dreaming of the life I will have.....what a life that will be!

An attempt to get it out

Today is the first day of the rest of your life....isn't that how that saying goes? Let me tell ya, I've got a lot of things going on....between family, work, and myself, I've got a lot of conflicting feelings and work to do! First, let me start by saying my sister and I live here and my mom lives in another state....mom has a lot of stuff going on, which stresses us out thinking about her. My sister has three children, one has his first girlfriend and the other is in love with her....and the middle one, she's a handful, but she is a good kid. I have opened my home up, with my husband, to his sister and her daughter. In the meantime we are also hosting a small group for church (love it!), adjusting to a stranger work schedule (his), and also gearing up and doing reseach for an upcoming gastric bypass (mine) I am currently five months into a six month doctor supervised weightloss program....there I said it, now the world knows. Its not that I'm not going to tell anyone, I just don't think anyone needs to know until I get ready to go under the knife....which right now seems to be the end of October, the middle of November.

I am thinking this will be a good outlet for my fears, thoughts, and frustrations as I get ready for the biggest day of my life.....which until recently was my marriage....now its surgery day!

Here's hoping I get healthy and less stressed as time goes by!